Life Is Hard....Sometimes

After a long time away, I decided that life has been extremely difficult for me the last few years. I really would like to start my own business and I have several in mind but honestly I'm broke and it takes money to make it. I know, probably better than others, that it does not need to be my own money. I am talking about overcoming a mental block of some kind. Wish me luck and positivity in 2018!

Who Do I Want to Be?

Who Do I Want to Be?

Currently I am 22 year-old woman with a full time job. I have always wanted to be an entrepreneur and work for myself. I guess I did not understand how hard that really was and how much I would need to give up momentarily.

As a child I wanted to be the next Beyonce, as most little girls at that time did. When I got older though, I was told that I was such a chatter box I should become a lawyer. Of course my mom liked any idea of me being successful.  She instilled in me a lot of ideals I hold true to now and values that are needed in today's world. Back then I would have given anything just to be a doctor and help my mom heal.

Today, my mother is gone. Her absence sent me through a whirlwind of emotions and thoughts. She was my "why" for most of the hard-work I did. Although my grandmother is still alive and well, I barely get to see her because I am, even with a full-time job, overcoming a cash flow problem.... 

Tomorrow, I would like to be energetic and focused. No more logging onto Facebook on a whim or searching the Twitter trends. I want to see my goals more clearly and map them out more efficiently. Don't get me wrong, I know that most 22 year old cannot say they are in the same position I am but I am realistic. I know that I have not used my full potential over the last few years and I take full responsibility. Tomorrow, I want to be me but with more tenacity and fight. I want to be less emotionally dependent on others. Tomorrow, I want to be the person that fights for their goals and dreams every moment my eyes are not closed....

 Talk to you tomorrow.

Big Yo's :)

Okay so first of all, I am not a lesbian in the least. I’m straight as hell. Lol However, I’d heard that Big Yo’s club was a good time even for straight people so I had been wondering if I should visit this club….should I take the risk? Well I did and what occurred while I was there is something like I’ve never seen before. Originally I was so confused just because there was a mixture of STUDS(masculine lesbians), FEMS (lesbians that are feminine), STEMS (lesbians who can pass for either), and then of course homosexual men both transsexual and simply men who were attracted to men. So the whole time I was trying to figure who was who…..lol don’t recommend trying that because you’re usually wrong lol

But…

However uncomfortable at first, I have to admit I had a lot of fun because they showed me a great time.You will never be bored hanging out with any lesbian female or gay male! And there was no difference at this club. I say this because at about 3am they started the entertainment. There were lip-syncs and strippers and the strippers weren’t just FEMS either. STEMS and FEMS, and even transsexuals got their chance on the floor and even though I’m not a lesbian, I honestly just have to give the ladies and men their props. They all was workin it!

Will I Return?…

I’m definitely going back cuz the environment wasn’t the regular vibe of a club. Even with the strippers it seemed more like a community instead of the normal club scene. Everyone was just there for good time and that’s it. First club I’ve been to with no fights in 2 hours! So yah….Big Yo’s is wassup -and this is comin from a straight girl!

P.S. Thanks for gettin me ta go Esha :)

Tatted up!!

Ok so I currently have only two tattoos. I want like four or five so I'm working on which ones. I don't wanna get tattoos just because they look nice so I put a lot of thought into them beforehand. They have to be symbolic or they wont make it on my body for eternity. :-)

Pretty.....I know lol but now I'm wondering what else and where I should get my other two or three.... See, I'm a very small person so there isn't a whole lot of room to be putting all these elaborate designs without people seeing it everyday. I'm tryna keep it as concealed as possible (for professional purposes). 

I wonder what else I should get? I was thinking a Purple,Blue,and some other color rose like a rose bush, or in a cluster, to represent my mother,father, and baby brother who are all passed away. Got to have a representation of them somehow on me..... Then I was thinking of getting a spaceship flying through the universe on my back.  OK OK I know you're thinking 'wtf?" but let me explain.

See, the spaceship mentality is something I wanna live by. Two key life principles derive from the idea of spaceships. 

#1- "Spaceships don't come equipped with rear-view mirrors, they dip as quick as they can..." -Andre 3000 

and

#2- If you've ever heard the saying "the sky's the limit" a spaceship contradicts that. It's basically like saying there is no limit since in a spaceship the sky has already been reached....

I know...deep right? lol 

I still wonder what, how, and where I should get these representations....

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My Beginning

Today is a new day. By this I mean, I will start a journey to renew myself as a whole person. I've heard that life is simple and life is hard, but the goal of happiness is impossible. I know....pessimistic much? Well I do not believe this. I believe that with some hard work and dedication, anyone can attain a goal in site.

This blog is solely based on a journey.  I will, throughout this blog, provide you with information about EVERYTHING....everything?....EVERYTHING. Everything that I post will definitely not help EVERYBODY but I hope that this blog will give you something that can help to guide you in the direction that you should go....if not? Oh well at least its entertaining!

I would like to inform you beautiful people that from time to time this blog may be a little personal- posting of my likes,dislikes, and experiences- but it will be mainly aimed toward lending a helping hand in your overall journey to....forever lol. Besides, everybody should be able to attain happiness right? I hope that you'll take your journey with me and provide me with feedback as to what is (and is not) working for you individually.

-MizzCrownholder